i'm not making resolutions this year. too much pressure, and i always abandon them along the way. for a lot of reasons, i guess...i'm too scatter brained, too stressed, too willpowerless, i like my sleep. but i'm not going to be a total unaccountable lame-o. instead of resolutions, i am making goals. which i know sounds like the same thing, but for some reason, it seems different in my brain. it's not about the new year, it's about positive change and things i need to do and things that i just plain want because i do, so there.

i want to be a better student for my last hurrah of grad school. not put things off, not hem and haw over decisions. there's a lot to do and i can't depend on my adviser to advise me because frankly, he kind of sucks at it.

this is almost embarassing because it's so obvious, but i'm going to be good about going to the gym. i paid them money so that they'd let me work out there. i may as well have flushed it down the toilet for as much as i've been going since thanksgiving. busy shmusy; i can accomplish goal #1 and still have time to go to the gym.

i am going to be healthier all around. this means that i'm not going to forget to eat meals, and i'm going to get more than 4 hours of sleep a night.

i am not going to let fear and self-doubt keep me from getting a good job. i'm smart and i know a lot about what i do; i shouldn't not apply for jobs because i don't think i'm smart enough. i'm smart enough.

i am going to communicate better. with everyone. about everything. it is not currently my strong suit.

*cough*engagement ring*cough*

i want to redesign my web page. there's nothing wrong with it per se, but it's something i've been meaning to do and i keep pushing it to the back burner

i want to learn how to knit well enough that i can actually follow patterns and not end up in a confused pile of tangled yarn.

i could keep going, but i won't bore the few people who read this (and bless you persistent few for putting up with my less-than-frequent updates). really want i want this year is to start really feeling like i'm living my life and not just going through the motions that i've become accustomed to. 8 straight years of college has left me feeling very disconnected from what i want out of life. i feel like it ought to be the opposite, but i've just thought about science and school and work for so long, to the point of not feeling like i'm living a healthy, well-rounded life. that's what i really want to change.

good luck to all of you and your goals...happy new year :)